"When you feel you're drowning in life's situations, remember: your life guard walks on water."

This morning I had another ultrasound. BBK2's amniotic fluid has gone up a tiny bit, which is some good news! That means we get to stay put until Friday's ultrasound at least. Unfortunately the amount of intestines outside the body keeps getting bigger and bigger by the appointment, but at this point we'll take it over needing to deliver so early. So far they look good and healthy, so that is also more good news. As long as they don't become inflamed or twisted, that shouldn't provide any real issues. The main concern with that is that now when we deliver, there is a good chance the baby won't be ready for surgery right away. What happens in these situations when the amount of intestines outside the body is too big to be put back in right away is they will create a small silo to "house" the intestines and will slowly feed them back in to the body a tiny bit each day until they can finally do surgery to close the hole back up. This, of course will push back recovery time but again--it's better to deal with that than preemie lungs at this point.

Today I am feeling better. Exhausted, but better. Who knew that something emotional could phsyically drain a person so much? This hanging out in limbo of the unknown from day to day has been sucking so much out of me. Lee has been so great about everything, letting me sleep in every day and making sure I follow my "rules of bed rest" as much as possible--though I'm not very good about obeying when it comes to that. Bed rest is for the birds, I tell ya. Nothing worse than having so much on your mind and then being instructed to lay in bed all day.

At first I kept asking myself why, but now I ask myself why not. I can do this. I have fears of the situation--but no doubts. That's good, right? I keep telling myself it's ok to be a little scared since I know in the end we'll knock this one out of the park and bring home a healthy, happy baby.

And I want to take a moment to thank all of you who are reading this and following our story. As I type these posts, I feel this baby and what we are going through consuming me. All your thoughts and prayers and kind words mean more than any of you will ever know and it pushes me to just keep on fighting. Many of you I have never even met and the support I have gotten has been above and beyond what I could have ever imagined. I would never be able to do this without such a great support system and for that I will forever be grateful for each and every one of you. Until next time.. <3


"When you feel you're drowning in life's situations, remember: your life guard walks on water."


I have not only a head in my ribs but a little foot as well, while the other foot is soundly on my bladder. I can't imagine that being very comfortable, perhaps I'm carrying a ballerina.. :)